Ch 5 pt 1 Start over take me home Jesus

 In the first sentence of chapter 5  Wendy says what she desired most was a new beginning. As I look at this sentence again I  am taken back to a time in my childhood. A time of innocence I dreamed during a fire of someone else's home catching fire and my  daddy ( yes at 46 almost 47 I still refer to my dad as "daddy" ). Any way my daddy was going to help stop the fire  At some point it seemed like the fire was  going to take up  the whole town and the ONLY one my daddy could trust  was God. He lifted me up and placed me into God's hands asking Him to take care of me while he was fighting this fire. Now AS I reflect of this My daddy never came back signifying I am  still in God's hands.

How beautiful a memory is that?

It's often us that pulls away not God and it is up to us to  come back to Him. He is waiting with open arms to accept you into his protection again. Are you willing to go- I am. 

He has given each of us a new beginning and that  was Jesus Christ dieing on the cross to rescue us from the death  we would have suffered.

Thank you Jesus You are worthy of all the praise there is.

My stepping stones Ch 4 pt 3

Remembering that chapter in the previous post took me right back where I first told my mother about my grandfather and what he did to me. So many memories all swirling in my head. But as I think of them I remember times when God was apart of my memory during what I thought were odd times. He would show up in dreams or visions or through other people or even scriptures that I would read. Some how He would let me know I was never far from his thoughts. And as I look back I am comforted by it now.

In the last entry I said that “It was like God was in the background and because I was and am human I felt I had to do something to feel safe. But I also continued to wonder why this was happening to me. What had I done, and when would it end. Then during this study I came across Jeremiah 1 4-5
"The word of the LORD came to me, saying, “Before I formed you in the womb I knew (or chose)you,
before you were born I set you apart;  I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”
The Amplified Bible (AMP) says
Then the word of the Lord came to me [Jeremiah], saying, Before I formed you in the womb I knew [and] approved of you [as My chosen instrument], and before you were born I separated and set you apart, consecrating you; [and] I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.

Then in Psalm 139:13-16 it says “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful,
I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.”
OK so He set me apart, ordained my days, which means to make a person a Christian minister or priest by a special ceremony. And as a minister you must be taught.Right?

Then I wondered if my days were ordained, and he knew this was to happen, was I to use what happened to me as a teaching aide to show others what I had been through as I learned to trust and rely on my Father again?

Well at one point I did want to write my story to let others know they weren't alone. So is the fact that I'm now doing this study God's way of taking me to that next level not only for my healing but a way to equip me to help someone else- just like the little girl wanted to do way back when? I can live with that....

The Lord is My sheperd Ch 4 Pt 2

On page 53 Wendy says He continued to point me to to his word where I'd find my answers” Well I can relate to that because that has happened so many times in my life as well. Those times I strayed away from the comfort of his arms. Times when I took my healing and life into my own hands. And it was at those times I felt the most desperate and lonely. But it was also that time I needed to feel like I was taking charge of my life and doing something. It was like God was in the background and because I was and am human I felt I had to do something to feel safe. But a lot of those times all I felt was pain and isolation. Because I was new to my faith there was no one to guide teach or instruct me on how to be a new christian or what I should be feeling. There was no one there to help grow my faith. Those times at church when I was in 3^rd grade were fleeting and far between. It was as if those Sundays were just a recess' or breaks from the real life the life I could see, hear, feel. And what I was feeling I didn't like. But for some reason – a reason I did not fully know or understand why – my thoughts kept going back to the bible and His Word.

AS I continue in this study scriptures are being revealed to me that at the time I did not know about. Scripture that would help explain to me that I was thought about I was thought of and I was cared for and about- By God. My Heavenly Father. As I write this I suddenly remember only bits and pieces of my past and the one thing I remember is the 23^rd psalm. “The Lord is my shepherd.” Although I didn't understand the meaning of it, I worked heard at memorizing it . Especially the part about how even thou I walk through the valley of the shadow of death” There were lots of shadows. And I clung to that chapter for some reason because it brought me comfort. Let me see if I can remember it.
“The Lord is my shepherd. I have all that I need. He lets me rest in green meadows; he leads me beside peaceful streams. He renews my strength. He guides me along right paths,bringing honor to his name. Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid,for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me. You prepare a feast for me in the presence of my enemies. You honor me by anointing my head with oil. My cup overflows with blessings. Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life,and I will live in the house of the Lord forever. (NLT).
Pause, fade out in refection...........






Authors note
Since I read the Living Bible this (NLT) was the closest to what I had. And I'm sure its the newest version of the living bible. So thats why I wrote this version So now that I'm off track I'll end here and start a new post to continue.